Reluctant Venus

(c) 2004 Aire Celeste Norell

I am suddenly aware I am a woman you look at me beautiful I decide I will trust you you are hard and unyielding you are a man you don't want to control me—I don't have to respond but you control yourself you act and I wait you are absolute you know where you will stop yourself my little act of defiance (I kissed your lips, twice) does not topple anything unyielding this is a man you are fair to the woman in you but in complete control I am still I don't move away or closer I am sensing but I don't hold on to any feeling I don't grab any emotion and say, this is mine! this is me! I have no desire to 'melt into your arms' I had no father like that I can't respect you as my superior I want to go insane to separate to escape my room-temperature, median-point numbness   you caress me but I am not allowed to ascend the wave of arousal ascend and breathe out finally falling onto the shore in the sea foam Venus is born and you deny you are a wall Venus inhales standing up from the fluid webbing cum and seawater waiting for an instant hesitating you don't see she is emerging— breathe, Aphrodite!